Inefficient-not achieving maximum productivity; wasting or failing to make the best use of time or resources.

Often times I think about the dreams and goals that I have and want to accomplish and I feel  inefficient. I certainly don’t feel like I am making the best use of my time or resources. I have two degrees that I do not really use and I’m starting to to get the itch that I want to do something else. Am I qualified?  Sometimes I think so, but other days not so much. I am debating on if I want to get an Ed.d, which is a doctorate in education because that is what I have been doing for the last 10+ years but I don’t know. I know to make any real money or move up, a terminal degree would be nice but I want a job that is bigger than money. Do I want to do something totally different? I didn’t get into my field to make a lot of money but I want to be comfortable. I don’t want to put all the financial heavy lifting to my husband. I have two degrees, I want to pull my own weight.

When I got my master’s there wasn’t a lot of asking God or contemplating. I did a little research, asked the higher ups around me and did it. I want to put a little more thought and time into my choice this time around. I don’t think having more formal education is what makes feel inefficient. I have to remind myself that his grace is sufficient. He is strong when I am weak.


I probably feel this way because what I really want to do I have no formal training at all. I want to be a writer. I want to write books that will be read all over the world and be referenced for years to come. I can’t really imagine that happening in my wildest dreams. Why not? I haven’t even tried yet and I am already talking myself out of it. Nobody can make me feel inefficient but me. I know it won’t be easy but if I take one step, God will take two. I was not made to be inefficient or mediocre. I was created for his purpose. There is something inside of me that is waiting to be revealed and the only person that can stop me from reaching my full potential is me.



9 thoughts on “Inefficient

  1. Give it a shot! Write a book. I have a similar dream to you, funnily enough. I wrote one novel (which was recently torn to shreds by an editor mainly because of structure and plotting), and have begun a second with a lot more experienced gained. The best thing you can do is just give it a shot. But first, just to avoid my mistake, I would certainly recommend taking a course in writing a book, that’s what I’ve recently done, just to learn techniques you may never have thought of incorporating otherwise. The one I did was from, they’ve got a course on fiction and non-fiction writing. It was of fantastic use.

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  2. Hey, go for it. One of my gifts is writing. Not on the level of grammar or things in that nature, but on a level of, this is the best way I spread the word of God. By writing, I get to tell my testimonies and share my journey with others like myself. I’m a few weeks away from self-publishing my first book of many and going forward, I will be providing the necessary tools to help others get their book out there. So go for you it! You never know exactly what God has in store for you. Writing is just the beginning.


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