Not until very recently. I used to think that I could do both, do God and do me too. I literally wanted to call this blog, doing God and doing me. I wanted to walk the line between secular and gospel, however the more I read the word, the more I realize that you can’t really do that. Its not really fair to God when you operate that way and I never looked at it before. I used to to think as long as I wasn’t breaking the Big Ten (commandments) that I was good. I went to church, I volunteer, I’m not a terrible person, but that wasn’t enough. God wanted to be my friend. He was definitely my father, my savior, but he wasn’t my friend.
Having God be your friend is a different thing entirely. You don’t tell your parent things that you tell your friends, you don’t invite your parent places you invite your friend. You are less inclined to talk to your parents everyday the way you would a friend. Its hard to imagine God as a friend, but I notice my life goes a lot smoother when I talk to him everyday instead of just on Sundays. I now try to talk to God several times a day and invite Him into everything I do, whether its partying or just chilling in the house. It has made such a difference.
I know it seems weird to think about God when you are drinking, partying or participating in other non church like activities, but God is there anyway. It would make it much easier if you just invited him along for the process. God can’t be are part time lover, only around when we need something. That is not fair to him. Do you ever let God talk to you or do you do all the talking? Nobody wants a friend that talks about themselves all the time. Have you asked him what pleases him? Do you ask for his advice (prayer) but then do what you want to do? Spiritual growth is more about memorizing scripture or reading your bible more. Its about growing closer in your relationship with God. Truly being able to call him a friend not only because you talk to him but because he talks back to you. You actually you use the things you he told you and live life in a way that is pleasing to him. I am not saying that is easy. Its not. Its crazy hard. The good thing about Jesus is that he isn’t judging us. He knows and wants us to keep trying. He just wants to be a part of the process. So invite God in, he is already everywhere you are going anyway.