I’m learning to be vulnerable, to see the changes I need to make, and realize its all a process. A long process. I want to be better now! Lol. It doesn’t work that way. Reminds of a line from when Harry met Sally. When you realize you found the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, you want the rest of your life to start now. I feel that way about Jesus. I want to show the world all the things that I have been reading in the bible that am I applying to my life. Unfortunately it doesn’t work that way. You can’t just say you want to change and changes instantly start happening. I wish it worked that way though. You have to put in the work for the changes you want to happen.

Now that we are in 2018 and making vision boards and writing out goals. I want to change now. I want to be a better person asap. Part of that is I am impatient and want things to happen now. Once I set my mind to something I don’t want to wait for it. The thing is though if it took 25 years to develop that habit then you probably aren’t going to break it in 21 days. It such a hard thing to comprehend when you are ready to start making changes. I know I’m having a hard time. I see growth but just as quickly I’m 2 steps away from backsliding. It’s a vicious cycle. Don’t get discouraged. It’s not going to happen overnight but if you keep with it you will overcome and transform. I know that sounds cliche but its really just one day at a time. No more no less. Choosing to not do that habit you are trying to break or starting a new habit. Next week I will talk about what to do if you backslide or miss a day or something doesn’t go according to plan.