Is everything ok?

I get that question a lot. My husband probably asks me that, at least once a day, just to check in. Sure, I’m OK. Google dictionary lists the definition of OK as satisfactory but not exceptionally or especially good. Sounds decent right? No one is opposed to be ok. If you asked someone how they were doing and they responded ok, you probably wouldn’t probe further. OK suggests satisfaction.

Yes it is but I want better than ok. What’s better than be ok? I’m not great but I’m lot closer… I want to feel great everyday and I don’t every day but I’m close. With God I feel great everyday and that’s why I started this blog. He doesn’t seem so far away. He doesn’t seem like I need help as much like I’m drowning. I am still in disbelief, because I don’t feel like I’m working hard enough for his blessings, but you don’t have to work hard for blessing. I didn’t know that before we weren’t friends. He was my father but he wasn’t my friend. There is definitely a difference. I can remember conversations we had when I was struggling. If I couldn’t remember what He said I could go back to it cause I wrote it down. Its really the reason that I started writing. I wanted to make sure that I was hearing God’s voice and not my own. Reading the bible is truly the easiest way to hear Gods voice. I was searching all over in books. Getting advice from other people. Best advice that works exactly for you is to just spend with God. Read the bible, listen to gospel music, meditate, be still.  This seems contradictory to everything I essentially thought I wanted to blog. That’s why God wouldn’t let me put it out before. There wasn’t enough Dominique. I hadn’t spent enough time with Him to be a true representation of Him and the message he wanted me to convey and the way he wanted to convey. It wasn’t from God that’s why it was going to fail.

The more time I spent with God the better person I’m becoming. Less scared. Less concerned about what people think about me. More concerned what He thinks about me. If God is in it, it will not fail. He will lead you exactly where He wants you to go. I’m excited to see where my writing will take me. Whether its read by 1 person or 100 people, hopefully it will encourage someone.

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